My lungs collapse and fill the air around you
A puff of smoke in cold and empty air
You grabbed my hand to try and stop the shaking
Our fingers filled the spaces in-between

I put the whole room on the edge of their seats
They say, it’s something about the way I carry myself
You know I’m, not the best at making conversation
Everyone just keeps repeating themselves

Someone stop this awful sinking feeling!
That I’m constantly letting everyone down!
All my friends had such high expectations
But I’m 22 and still stuck in this town

Brian tells me that I drink too often
And Ben is always saying I look too pale
I think about death way too often
Fighting the urge to CUT THE WHEEL REAL HARD!

Was it even worth it in the end?
Lost my lover, my brother, and most my friends
Can we please, oh god, just make amends
I guess I became part of the trend…

Now, my lungs fill and kill the air around me
I see now it was just a fantasy
All those tears of fear and love and wanting
Were feelings that have long since disappeared

And when I speak there is a dreadful silence
This empty room is filled with past goodbyes
I lie in bed and all I hear is screaming
And I fall asleep hoping I won’t open my eyes…

Now I’m wide awake and everything’s in motion!
Even if the pieces move slowly
Every step you take is making progress
Going backwards at least means you’re moving

I’ll never live up to my reputation
Or change past missed opportunities
But I sure as hell will keep on fighting
And one day I’ll wake up where I’m supposed to be

Oh my friend, can you do this for me?
Don’t let life determine who you’ll be
Love yourself and please don’t stop dreaming
We all deserve a chance to be happy