Someone here, has offered you comfort Through straws and mirrors, they distorted the reflection Leanne… Where have you gone? I don’t know how to help,But you know I try my hardest I hold your hand, while you throw up in the bathroom Again… The 4th time today And they drugged your drinks, just so they could take advantage Took pictures of you, naked in the bathtub They’re not… And never were your friends… In class, at school, came all the vicious rumours You’d take off your clothes for anyone that asked you If they… Gave you the next fix And you know they will Do anything, if it helps themselves You fake it, It kills Then suddenly you forget who you used to be And how much is enough? Before you become the drugs? I hear them talk, in between classes About this girl they fucked, when she was barely conscious Your name... Was used a few times… Then it got worse, you switched to injections To numb your heart, cause you wanted to feel nothing You said... “It made things feel better than okay.” Then you missed school, and at first no one noticed Then a week passed and your parents bought coffin My friend... What have you done? Your mom found you, in your bedroom on the carpet There was nothing left, but a poem about a garden I read... Earlier that year... And you know I tried But it wasn’t enough! Just to confide We’re all dead, inside Now so much more, than before Leanne You poisoned your blood Here’s to giving up You became the drugs Now you’re nothing but A memory…

My first love, the one that ran around My best friend, that always let me down Where are you tonight? Cause I've got nothing better to do, You’re the best way to waste time If this is all I mean to you, well I think I’m through You get yours, I’ll get mine We fall in and out of letting down, Is there just no middle ground to stand on? We’re just building up to the end, Can we just get it over with, please? Maybe you’re too blind to see, That what you do is killing me! Have you never noticed it, Or do you just not give a shit? Just come clean… You gave me all these Little Hints, Like pieces that do not fit But I keep turning them around...again and again… Say I’ll be just fine… I just need to die one last time All these words we've held inside They are silent now, and burning out As I say goodbye.... Fast forward 7 years, we still talk, but never hear The tone… Wasting days in our apartments, there’s worse things Than being alone… Drunk on the floor again, trying to forget I exist… Empty bottles and pages displayed as if to say: “Welcome to the accident!” You still keep me up at night It takes all that I have just to get by All those promises that were lies… They are distant now, and blurring out As I close my eyes...for the last time…

You were always one Of the few real people I knew But now you're gone They offered you wings, so you flew They said "Hey Kate You don't need to suffer anymore. We've got a place where we can leave our bodies behind." Just get inside our... Little red car We'll drive so far You'll forget who you are How's your new life? In your mind you've painted in the clouds But your eyes are vacant When your feet hit the ground I saw you today... I looked you in the soul But you didn't recognize me Memories are now dead and gone You left in their car You forgot who you are And now you're so far You've become the blackness around the stars! The blackness around the stars...

You said you love my green eyes… You said you could stare at them all day You said you love the way I taste… You love every sound I make You said you love the songs I sing You said the lyrics made you think You said you love the games we played Oh how we’d just laugh and say… “I think we have something great,,, You have a heart that I will never break You mean the whole world to me I think this is the end of misery” You said you love the way I kiss… But when our lips touch it feels empty You said you love being in my arms But that it was getting hard to breathe You said you love my mind and body With all my scars and misery You said you loved my amenity But you said that you don’t love me. We used to have something great… I had a heart but it’s faded away You used to mean the world to me… Now you’re just a distant memory...

We were talking about love How we laughed and sang and cried together but it was never enough Now they're leading us down a hall Towards a room full of vacant faces standing there in awe It’s so unreal, died at 16 We were gonna be together, yeah just you and me… This is a bad dream, this can't be real I am numb… I can not feel I can't believe this, is this really happening? Why would you take him away from me? Don't tell me "God needed him worse" Now there’s one less angel here down on earth You sick bastard, it wasn't his time If you needed a life why didn't you take mine? And there was silence, how it hurts To say goodbye and sleep forever in the back of a herse And we often forget how Much someone means to us until the lights go out Now they'll all speak with soft words They're trying not to upset me but it just makes it worse… He is gone… And now I'm alone My last heartbeat A dial tone… You sick bastard, it wasn't his time Since you took his life You’re gonna have mine...

And this December, yeah, I will remember Every little thing you said And how it made me feel And all the little sounds you made When we kissed and laid on the ground Last fall Deep cuts and black bruises All something one chooses But it's the wrong choice Vodka and needles Are now your lifestyle And all of the while It's making me cry tonight... Sweet Amberline, caught up in the scene Never saw it coming, died at 18 She crumbled to pieces, just like I am now I still haven't lost it, only God knows how And I sing for you sweetly, my hearts on the stage I tried to write another line, but there's a tear on the page And I've had enough, I'm giving up... Black clothes and sad faces Your arms crossed with laces I'm losing myself, in the back of the room They hold me and hug me But it doesn't help me The only embrace I wanted Was yours... Everything started melting! I felt nothing but numbness! Inside my head, I couldn't hear what anyone said I fell to the floor screaming, this horrible feeling! I want to be alone! I want to be alone! Sweet Amberline, caught up in the scene Left me suicidal at only 18 I crumbled to pieces, it's more than I can stand I can't take it anymore, a gun in my hand And I sing for you sweetly, my heart's filled with rage! I tried to write a last line, but I tore up and burned the page! And I've had enough! I'm giving up! Right now... Right now!

In 2006, they hit me with the crucifix Told me my feelings were a sin, oh here we go again They hauled me off to church, hoping that it would make a change But all it really showed me, is that the world can be a real cruel place And In 2008, those feelings moved away I didn’t want to be in love, so I started taking drugs And it got in my head, that I was better off dead But my friends numbed me up and showed me alcohol instead Another shot down… In 2009, I drank more than all the time Parties every single weekend, I was anything but fine And I tried to get better, but they said “Just one more line” Why deal with your problems, when you can get fucked up every night? And in 2010, It all started over again I lost someone close to me, as close as anyone could be And I didn't ever sleep, because I swear I heard him breath I think me and the sky are done, because someone took away my sun… It doesn't shine anymore… And in 2012, I escaped four years of hell Then I slowly realised, it would be like this my whole life Most of my friends were gone, but my music made me stay But pretty soon I lost all faith and flew, off, to, L.A. And I got fucked… And came right back… It’s been two years since then, and here I sit with my pen It’s still a daily struggle, to find a reason to live I have my pretty words, and the stories that they tell But I can’t help but bite my lip, when I say my friends are for sale...

And the room is breathing, it never stops We’re medicated every time we talk Yeah, we’re killing ourselves, up on this hill There’s a hole in my arm that never healed And we’re hiding under, your pool deck Where she showed us the bruises on her neck Said you sold the whole bag to a couple of strangers Who are calling your phone, but we don’t have the time Take my head off at the door I don’t want to think anything, anymore Just give me those drugs, that love in a vial To stop my brain from functioning for a while Kiss my chest, while I'm numb on the bed Said I was always something you could never get And I tried to speak, but I couldn't talk Never much I could do to make things stop! Stop, stop stop stop When we tried to lie, it came out terribly Tell your parents why you threw up in the street We all begged, and did nearly everything For those chemicals that fucked with our dreams And Brooke, she said, “Don’t let me sleep with him” But I lost my grip and she found his bed Will you forget this, all those things we did? These will all just be stories when High School ends! Leave my heart out on the floor I can’t feel emotions, what were they used for? I need smoke in my lungs, a new pair of lips Tracing my stomach with their finger tips And we’ll lose ourselves, till we puke again Take a detox walk to the gas station Where we’ll meet them there, we’ll get in their car Start the cycle over, how far is too far?

Another night with friends, I’m rarely sober Pour the drinks again, I need it to get out of my head Up on this hill every weekend, this house is haunted Invite everyone in, we’re gonna have a good time But who was it good for? They’re kissing in the pool, will they remember in the morning? She’s taking off her clothes for him, I tried to stop her Will she regret it? I had all of my first times with total strangers Boy, did I fuck up Yeah we were all just kids, then we blew it And I lost Ryan, I lost Jake What a waste of time, good friends betray And you kissed my lips then said goodbye That seems to happen all the time And now I’m singing every line From those songs we played every night We’d go upstairs and get real high Yeah, we’re out on the weekend We’d hide our drugs and talk about What would happen if your dad found out I remember when we were all clean But the past seems forgotten The room was full of music, I strummed all night When you played your drums I found my light But the last time I saw you, you were strung out How could I expect something better? And we all die or have a falling out! Somewhere between school and our self doubt And we all drank ourselves to death When we’re out on the weekend! And I don’t care about what you’re saying, they’re just a bunch of empty words You’re too afraid of what they’ll think if you tell me how your heart hurts When no one is watching you kiss me more, Ryan and Jacob are passed out on the floor And I was alone with the strobe lights, in a blur of movement they filled my sight And our bodies twisted on the floor, I didn’t need regrets but you gave me more Spent time alone, just to clear my head, but someone always joined me on the bed Surely I’m not the only one who thought things through, “Cat Like Thief” “To The End With You” By the end of it I lost most of my friends That house got sold and that was the end… When we’re out on the weekend! I hate all of my friends, what a bunch of assholes...

You had a smile that lit up the room Been gone quite a while, where have you gone to? Your room is now empty, just like their words Another hole in the ground, filling up with dirt Now no one talks much, no it’s not the same We’re all just looking for someone to blame Now we can’t even walk past your street When we do we just look down, stare at our feet I said I didn't like pictures, you said that was fine Oh god, I wish you’d asked me a few more times Now I’m having a drink, maybe more than a few And Daniel is fucked from those pills that he chewed We all told stories when we stayed up all night Yeah, we would all laugh and get real...high Never told them about us, I hoped that you did How we were more, than just “good friends” But now it’s all over, I guess that’s the end Where we go with our lives now, I guess it depends Before I left town, I lay on your bed all afternoon And through my tears I whispered “I’ll see you soon”

You never think twice before you make a move… The past will follow you, for the rest of your life… And you packed your life into boxes Nothing was left but an empty room And all your things,You take from house to house I guess there’s nowhere that feels like home… And all of the people you meet along the way Will be gone, as fast as they came… Then you’ll get a job you’ll make some new friends… But none of them feel quite the same And you’ll sing when no one is home Hope your roommates don’t find you drunk again You want to change,But you don’t think you can Everyone still points out, the same old flaws And you still cry, Yourself to sleep There are nights you just want to die And you find, Something to occupy your time But your thoughts always start to stray You find it hard, To get out of bed What’s the point? The same old shit. So you write, A song about your life And talk about yourself as if it’s someone else And hopefully you can help someone out That might be going through the exact same thing Simple chords, nothing too special Just background noise to a simple poem And then you’re done, You send it to your old friend He’s at work right now, a hundred miles away And since, this is now the end There’s one last line so I’ll, Sit down, my pen...

At first things were better We kissed almost every night Lust more than emotion But everything felt alright Then there came a day where You said I felt more like a chore You didn't let me go, no no no You just said you wanted more… Then all affection stopped And you moved in someone else I was given my own room All alone with just my guilt I’ll never admit that I'm jealous Although you knew it before Because now I never talk And I stay locked behind my door Am I close to the divide? Did you have something else in mind? Am I worth it at all? I can hear it from the hall You say you still care about me You remind me all the time It seems like everyone I meet Is another reason I feel guilty about wanting to die I see you kiss their lips And it makes me numb inside I don’t know how it is I feel But I don’t feel alive It hurt more at first But then it sunk in my head That the only comfort I had now Was alcohol and an empty bed And one night we talked and started to cry And I knew not what to do You said to me “I love you” And I could only say “Thank you very much…” I think I'm past the dividing line You don’t need me in your life I’m not worth it at all An empty bottle, one missed call! I’m not worth it at all… I can hear it through the walls… Do you care, do you really? I don’t think you do, I know you... I know you… This is something you’d do….

It happened slowly, I noticed Watching you change, it starts with the little things You miss a lot of school, you never answer your phone Not too big on food, will you eat something please? The day you dyed your hair darker than the clothes you wear I saw it in your eyes, you’re no longer in there Your makeup runs down but you make sure no one sees Gone is that smile, even the one you faked Oh how I wish that you could see the stranger in front of me They look a lot like you And just who is talking to me? They have your face and your name But don’t quite sound the same And it’s really no mystery, we’ll go down in this towns history As just two more sad kids And if you were here next to me, this all might end differently But I think you’re gone for good Your tired eyes crave a more permanent sleep I know you've tried a couple of times but did not succeed Carried from the car that night you couldn't breath Lying on your floor, holding on tightly And with eyes closed, we sat there on our knees Crying through my clothes, you said you envied me We cleaned all of the wounds you never let them see And I’d kiss every scar, but you turned away from me I see this stranger with clarity, he drinks too much in his misery And talks a lot like you I see this face staring back at me, the mirrors not how it used to be It looks a lot like me...

Tell all my friends not to cry for me I'm miserable, I just want peace And when I'm gone, tears will come down your face But please dry your eyes, I can easily be replaced Six months from now I’ll be erased A memory, a foggy haze And that grave you’ll spend endless nights leaned up against Talking to nothing, not making any sense Will grow over with grass when you move away And you’ll leave me here rotting as I waste away! You can’t save me from this darkness Moving forward with no progress Find a new place, change your name But everything stays the same Everyone’s made of paper, no nothing is real Conversations one sided, it’s as fake as it feels And when it’s all over, they’ll gather around my grave Pretend like they knew more about me than just my name Sell all my things to whoever pays No reason to keep what has been debased Tell Brian I tried to pull through It’s not your fault, there wasn't much you could do And if Jake shows up, ask him where he’s been And why he only drove this far when it’s the end And to everyone else, when I asked for help It was always “Too Busy” or “Tired as hell” Surely you could've made the time Well it doesn't matter, just enjoy your lives You never help someone who’s depressed Because it’s “Uncomfortable to address” Throwing up without taking a drink Staying high so they don’t have to think Sleeping with strangers, giving up on love Getting nervous when you mention blood On the verge of crying but saying they’re fine Would you please just open up your eyes? Yeah, maybe next time you will see the signs

Gone, is the madness of yesterday Even the calendar seems to rot Where there was wonder now sits fear And everyone’s turned their backs on me And if I could give advice about living this life Is love what you get cause it might not come twice It might not sound like much, but you’ll see what it’s worth When there’s a few more smiles, there’s a little less hurt You’re letting me go The carpet is covered in ashes… So drunk I can barely stand... The feeling pushed downwards as I fell on my bed And the morning came easy with an ache in my head And I’ll see you still haven’t called… And I’ve… Been screaming at the ceiling. And I lie… To myself to make it better And I see! Things won’t change! Nothing ever does! And I! Need! An escape! And how are you doing out in that town? I hear you’re doing quite well for yourself, without me around… Got a girl, got a degree… The world keeps spinning it would seem. You moved, on, I can see… The best decision you ever made… Was letting me go Good friends they grow old You’re letting me go So I’ve been told You’re letting me go You’re letting me go... Falling asleep… Has gotten much harder… Cause I still see You here with me…

Someone here, has offered you comfort Through straws and mirrors, they distorted the reflection Leanne… Where have you gone? I don’t know how to help,But you know I try my hardest I hold your hand, while you throw up in the bathroom Again… The 4th time today And they drugged your drinks, just so they could take advantage Took pictures of you, naked in the bathtub They’re not… And never were your friends… In class, at school, came all the vicious rumours You’d take off your clothes for anyone that asked you If they… Gave you the next fix And you know they will Do anything, if it helps themselves You fake it, It kills Then suddenly you forget who you used to be And how much is enough? Before you become the drugs? I hear them talk, in between classes About this girl they fucked, when she was barely conscious Your name... Was used a few times… Then it got worse, you switched to injections To numb your heart, cause you wanted to feel nothing You said... “It made things feel better than okay.” Then you missed school, and at first no one noticed Then a week passed and your parents bought coffin My friend... What have you done? Your mom found you, in your bedroom on the carpet There was nothing left, but a poem about a garden I read... Earlier that year... And you know I tried But it wasn’t enough! Just to confide We’re all dead, inside Now so much more, than before Leanne You poisoned your blood Here’s to giving up You became the drugs Now you’re nothing but A memory…