1. |
November 24, 01:14 A.M.
02:39
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"I'm so relieved
You're talking to me again
I thought I lost you for good, how have you been?
Since you left, I haven't awoken
In anyone's arms
Now it's much colder
I love you, and you don't have to respond
I just want you to know you never leave my mind
I keep drifting off, my eyes hard to keep open
I hope you sleep well, I miss your voice"
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2. |
Left On West Lake
03:03
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You wake up in the morning, but the morning’s never good
Because the flies around the kitchen keep landing on your food
And your mother’s still sleeping from the whiskey in her veins
As a kid you tried to help her but she said you were to blame
Your clothes are soaked in cigarettes but you've never smoked a day
You take what your friends give you just to take away the pain
And your sister finds pleasure in starting endless fights
Screaming outside your shaking door every single night
They tear down your confidence every chance they get
From making fun of how you look and the off hand comments
You try your best to get a job so you can get away
But everyone knows who you are and spits on your last name
And at every single party there’s a face you want to forget
Your past seems only to remind you “This is as good as it gets.”
And through darkened rooms and afternoons where faces blur from one to two
they say “Hey, don’t I know you?”
I know you…
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3. |
Mauna Kea
06:40
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You moved here a few months ago
Got a job, but you still feel alone
Found some strangers to call your friends
What you do now just depends
On what would make them like you
You hope they don’t intrude upon
Those secrets that line your head
Switch back, put that shirt on
The one where red circles blue
When you visit you seem worn down
You haven’t hugged me this hard since we were kids
You smoke a lot more cigarettes
And drink more than I’ve seen before
We’re both choked by melancholy
With no hope of getting free
I always thought you were Mauna Kea
But now I see, you’re just like me
We can do so much more than this, you know
Your brother he told us so
But hazy eyes can’t see where to go
We can’t stand, much less run
Through afternoons spent in your living room
And all those nights we stayed up late
To later on somewhere down the road
Where our fun had to be rolled
Compliments are replaced with lighter clicks
There’s only sleep when tears run dry
Paper’s only used for paychecks
Pens are only used for crime
When did all our conversations
Become complaining about life?
And I can’t help but to wonder
Could things have turned out right?
Why is no one ever listening?
Why do the beautiful have scars on their skin?
It’s a fact, you are never coming back?
I am left down here with my things all packed....
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4. |
I Can't Sleep
03:38
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I miss you like hell
It's been a few years now
I miss your brown eyes
The way you used to say my name
I miss you so well
But don't know if you can tell
I need you right now
Or at least just to see your face
I have photographs
From when we lay in the grass
Your head turned towards me
A kiss while half asleep
And I would like to imagine
You still think of me
But I don't think you do
I guess there's things more important
Now you have that new girl
What's her name?
It's always a new one
I see your name in my phone
I hope one day you will call
But you never do
I miss you like hell
And it hurts about the same
Why do I do this to myself?
I miss you like hell...
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5. |
Best Friends
03:50
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And just when did you choose
To forget me? You let their words spill into
Your head is filled with doubts
Suffocating me as you inhale and blow out
The smoke that fills up your days
I guess we all have our poison that we use to
Kill the thoughts that keep us awake
I know I've been guilty of just the same
Just because I shouldn't, doesn't mean I don't
And I will hope you feel the same, but I know you won't!
And I can keep on lying to myself all the time
That you are just busy, that everything's fine
And maybe when we grow up, five or ten years from now
You'll say you are sorry and keep looking down
But truth is that you walked out at the absolute worst time
And I've heard your apologies enough to know they are lies
And I doubt that you'll hear this, even if you try
But I have one more message, I'm saying goodbye
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6. |
Northern Winters
05:16
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Am I really that replaceable?
It took you less than 3 months
And am I really this forgettable?
You haven’t talked to me in a year
Say goodbye to the Northern Winters
I’m driving back southbound to hell
“A waste of time” is what you called me then
Well I can’t really argue that fact
Wasted life in that year I drank too much
Never helped me, just made me ashamed
Those words you said oh so harshly
“Find someone else to fuck and live off of.”
You said it like I had a choice
You said I make you nothing but miserable
When you’re around me you feel invisible
I said I’m broken and I don’t know if I can be repaired, then you said
“Go find someone who cares”
You sent me a text oh so damaging
And I choked up after each line, it said:
“The more that I find out you were dishonest
The more I start to hate you
I can’t even keep a fucking apartment
Because I used all of my money on you
I get repaid with your bullshit and disrespect
I don’t know if I’ll welcome you back
There’s a lot of things that would have to change
Then again, you've made that promise before
You said you feel suicidal
But you’re already a walking corpse
You said I make you nothing but miserable
When you’re around me you feel invisible
I said I’m broken and I don’t know if I can be repaired, then you said
“Go find someone who cares.”
“Go find someone who cares
About who you are, or what you’ll be
About how you feel, or if it’s real
I’ve made the mistake of loving you
But now I’m done
I’m done
Go find someone who cares.”
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7. |
Haley's Song
04:45
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I'd meet you at the corner every morning
And sometimes you'd come to my door
You watched me fix myself in the mirror
Always told me I looked "good enough"
The bus was full of awful sounds
But we drowned them out with music
You'd sleep on my shoulder until we got to school
God you know, I really miss that
We talked about all the things we hate
Our future dreams when we graduate
I was always a dreamer, I know
That always bothered you
But all of that is behind us now
No, we don't talk much anymore
And I'm sorry if I did something wrong
You know I'd like to apologise if I did
I remember those nights we spent together
When we'd replace tears with alcohol
And I'd see the scars that covered your body
You always said it was your fault
But nothing you could do
Could make me think any less of you
Because I've let you closer than most
But soon you got distant from me
Acted like we had no history
All the times I made sure you didn't bleed
Are now just distant, forgotten memories
And the times we sat in the dark
Or drove all night in your parents car
Struggling to find out just who we are
Well, I guess that you did
Found a new life to live
And I'm not a part of it
But if you forget me, I will accept it
Yeah, you forgot me, but I will learn to live...
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8. |
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We grew up just down the street from each other
Lined with tape, that shack in your back yard
Your brothers smoked, we said we’d never touch those things
I fell again, I still have that scar on my knee
And they spent days in your basement
I used to spend my nights there to
But all that time seems wasted
That rooms so barren now...because you will…
Take those posters off the wall, take everything you used to love
And throw it in the garbage
Take all those games we played and sell them all to strangers
Gotta have some money
I fought back every word I wanted to say
Like it would've made a difference
I spent all of my life being half way alive
While most of my friends left me behind
You said you would never change, but we’re all not quite the same
We took all sorts of things to calm our heads…
Tear those posters off the wall and throw them all away…
Took the promises we made and threw them in my face
I don’t know what to say…
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9. |
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You’re not letting go, of who you thought you owned
But I was not an object
How could you be so mean? Killed what’s left inside of me
But you don’t care
And you’re not waking up, unless it’s time for work
I was never an option
And I'm not throwing up, because I am sick
But from trying to erase you
I still feel the pain, from all the many things
That people put inside me
I am a mistake, for you to throw away
Try again in the morning
And I’ll try to pretend, that I enjoy your kiss
As you press me against the mattress
And so I came back home, with all of these high hopes
That things would be different
But these people are the same, they ignore the strange
And music is just noises
They talk with their mouths, tuning the world out
They hear but never listen
While they down their drinks and laugh with their friends
I wish I was like them
And if there is beauty, it will not find me
I'm buried in the ugly
And I know in the end, this disease will win
But I've learned to accept it
And when it’s my turn to die, will anyone cry?
I think I know the answer
They’ll walk up to my grave, say a prayer in my name
And bury what’s left of my brain
And they’ll find my note that read: “Sorry to my friends,
Congratulations to my enemies”
They’ll cover up my scars, and empty out my drawers
At least I’ll make an attractive corpse
Funny how in the end, everyone pretends
Like they knew you and what you stood for…
The smallest things in the world
Can crawl inside our hearts
and quickly turn fatal
And when I don’t wake up
Someday pretty soon
I will be forgotten
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10. |
Frayed At the Knees
03:27
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I don't know what else I can do
To save you, you refuse
They always say to you
"Get out, or give in"
I can't say I blame you
For hating everything
A drink to celebrate our failures
One for me, one for you
As we sit around in your room
You tell me who hurt you
And all of the names they called you
"Whore" "Liar"
There used to be a light that saved you
Not now, never again
You said there was this look I gave you
You can't quite describe
You know we have a lot in common
We're both selfish
All we want is just to smile
And really mean it
But that feeling has been gone a while
I see him, you miss her
You hold that notebook like a bible
The last page, those last words
As we drive all over this town
We hear orange and see blue
Your jeans are frayed and torn at the knees
Those concerts we went to
Take another breath here with me
Breath in and let go
Tonight we're far from those broken homes
I'm right here with you
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11. |
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There was a boy who said he loved me
When he really just loved the idea
And kisses came and then they ended
When the idea became too real
And days will come and weeks will end
The timing seems so insightful
Through broken bones and weary friends
The future seems so delightful
And I will do my best to pretend
That there's something here to notice
But when these days all blur together
Hoping never seemed more hopeless
And in the winter when the silence came
I was told I wasn't worth it
The snow blew in and stung my skin
Those words they felt like razors
A foggy window, a car ride home
Every minute was an hour
That sinking feeling we all feel now
Will slowly start to devour
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12. |
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We will always be
Driving backwards on a one way interstate
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13. |
Better Than Me
03:38
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You’re only twenty three and you can’t believe
That you’re alive and breathing
You say without a doubt that time is running out
You only have a couple more years
The doctor told me I have a heart disease
I won’t make it to forty
It’s all those years of drugs, blackened is my blood
I gave up my future a long time ago
You always fall in love with everyone you meet
You try to hold on but they always leave
You play your music loud to drown the world out
When you’re drunk you tell me this one thing:
“By whatever grace of God that I beat the odds
I still can’t fix what I destroyed
I need to tell you this, I want to confess
I need to get this off my chest…”
You said, “I want to be a father to a son or a daughter
Even just for a while, as long as I can
And I want to raise them to be better than I am
I hope that I can see them when they graduate
But if I go under, I hope that their mother
Tells them I loved them more than life itself
Leave them all my money, so they can get a degree
I want nothing else but for them to be happy
And I'm sure they’ll hear the stories of my past and they’ll see
It’s not hard to be…
Better than me…
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14. |
The Good In People
01:53
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I keep running to anything lethal
I've convinced myself that everyone's evil
So why do I look for the good in people?
Perhaps I still have hope for a better future
Where my friends don't have to drink themselves to sleep
Where I can finally not lose everything I eat
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15. |
Ben Is Sleeping
04:37
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He is sleeping through his dizzy head
Always forgetting everything he says
When his eyes open he’ll have a headache
Kneeling at the toilet, the nausea comes in waves
Every lover takes what they want and leaves
It’s hard to say no to a beautiful thief
I still remember that night that you asked me
“Why must I pay for love when mine is always free?”
And I don’t ask questions
Cause I never like the answers
Never do I learn my goddamn lesson
It’s not much, but that’s my confession
I’m still reeling from those nights we stayed awake
Poisoned blood makes the truth easier to take
Bills are due soon, work away the days
To just be happy seems like a lot of pain
I said we should leave, he can get away
But Ben finds comfort in a full ashtray
He says I can come over if I don’t want to think
We have paralyzers in the form of a joint and a drink
And I don’t ask many questions
Cause I have the same one answer
Never do I learn my goddamn lesson
To be numb has become an obsession…
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16. |
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My lungs collapse and fill the air around you
A puff of smoke in cold and empty air
You grabbed my hand to try and stop the shaking
Our fingers filled the spaces in-between
I put the whole room on the edge of their seats
They say, it’s something about the way I carry myself
You know I’m, not the best at making conversation
Everyone just keeps repeating themselves
Someone stop this awful sinking feeling!
That I’m constantly letting everyone down!
All my friends had such high expectations
But I’m 22 and still stuck in this town
Brian tells me that I drink too often
And Ben is always saying I look too pale
I think about death way too often
Fighting the urge to CUT THE WHEEL REAL HARD!
Was it even worth it in the end?
Lost my lover, my brother, and most my friends
Can we please, oh god, just make amends
I guess I became part of the trend…
Now, my lungs fill and kill the air around me
I see now it was just a fantasy
All those tears of fear and love and wanting
Were feelings that have long since disappeared
And when I speak there is a dreadful silence
This empty room is filled with past goodbyes
I lie in bed and all I hear is screaming
And I fall asleep hoping I won’t open my eyes…
Now I’m wide awake and everything’s in motion!
Even if the pieces move slowly
Every step you take is making progress
Going backwards at least means you’re moving
I’ll never live up to my reputation
Or change past missed opportunities
But I sure as hell will keep on fighting
And one day I’ll wake up where I’m supposed to be
Oh my friend, can you do this for me?
Don’t let life determine who you’ll be
Love yourself and please don’t stop dreaming
We all deserve a chance to be happy
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17. |
Hard Truths (Demo)
03:37
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You both feel something, but you’re just not sure
The concept of romance just seems so obscure
So many times you said it just wasn’t real
Just a pumped up word, so absurd, all that space to fill and
Through all those days you spent in those arms of sleep
You felt your heart in the dark, said “It’s you I want to keep”
And they tell you things they don’t tell anyone else
But you still never say anything about yourself…
And every “I like you” is just pressing the bruise
Stay alone, take a chance, you just cannot choose
They said “I don’t wanna wait two weeks to kiss your lips”
And you reply like you’re reading off a script
And they tell you about who has hurt them before
You don’t wanna be another story they recite on the floor
And one of these days you’ll both tell hard truths
Cause you’re never missing someone as much as they’re missing you
We left my house just three hours ago
Got gas, got drinks, now we’re heading to Terre Haute
This drive is lovely, so much is doesn’t seem long
Drumming on our legs, down the road, we sing along
We spent quite a lot of time on your couch
Playing games, getting drunk, and lots of making out
When you started crying you told me all about
Through whiskey tears, no fear, you spilled out all your doubts
And I said “I like you” but don’t know how to feel
I’m too much fiction and you’re far too real
You said you’ve had far too many “If’s”
But I can’t decide if I want to commit
You say I’m perfect but I must disagree
Been used, doped up and drunk more than you can believe
When you call me lovely, I just feel guilty…
Cause I never miss someone as much as they’re missing me
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They were scenes rehearsed and acted out
Crying lines into a mirror
You were caught off guard when I lashed out
Said they were crocodile tears
And I speak the truth, but you aren’t listening!
You have a toxic tongue that poisons everything!
Try your best to get under my skin
But I’m not letting that happen again!
Cause if you could, you would, I know you…
And if you can, you will, I see through your skin!
An eye for an eye is all that I can see!
Break my bones, you scream in agony!
The things that you have been saying to me
Sound an awful lot like lies!
Through that makeup, I see crystal clear!
Don’t look too tired or so insincere
A perfect act so that you will appear
As confident as you think you are!
There were days spent drunk and burning out
Taking pills to kill the fear
I was so fucked when you showed up
That I burst into tears
And you talk to me like a stranger you’ve been absolved of
If it’s a joke to you, it;s a joke to me, we can laugh it off! Haha!
You scratched on my paper skin in pen:
“Who I was then, I’ll never be again.”
Cause if it’s good, you should
Run away
When it’s hard, you’ll leave
You’re translucent!
As confident as you think you are!
As confident as you think you... are!
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19. |
Spill (Demo)
01:34
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How empty your head is
When you spill out the contents
Onto someone that you loved
How bled dry your heart is
When you sing straight from it
Writing all those words across the page
How misplaced your trust is
When it’s taken advantage of
By someone you thought loved you
How desperate we all are
To cover up our scars
To meet someone who makes us feel something
To have someone who makes things okay…
Or to take something that makes it go away
To drink something that makes us feel nothing
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20. |
A Slower Clock (Demo)
03:11
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She said “Don’t let him hurt you”
But there is nothing left to hurt
He’s just a person I touched who
Left me bleeding in the dirt
Said “I know that feeling…
Of desperate, unrequited love…”
You never left, but you said you would drive
To this place we despised
But once again, you never showed up
Instead of making excuses all the time
Can you please make up your mind?
Stay in or get out of my life
I just have to ask you
Does it ever cross your thoughts?
Just what could have happened
If we’d had a slower clock
But you said you were happy
With that new life that you had found
But there is an awkward silence
Whenever you are around!...
I’ll say I’m over it! But in the back of my head
I’m still wondering
It would be an understatement to say, it drives me insane
I need some closure
Is it such a hard thing to do?
Is it such a hard thing to say?
I’d prefer you
To just say you hate me
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21. |
Intro (Blood Moon)
01:09
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22. |
Haunting Grounds
04:33
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Only when you crash down
Lonely dead grass, haunting grounds
A ghost, pale skin, wedding gown
Dim lights, sheets pulled, curtain call
Lit up, green glow, hollow eyes
The fog spreads, darkness, swallowed whole
Slit wrists, rope burns, broken soul
They’re here now! Run while you still can!
You’re taking the risk of falling down
Running from those scary sounds
They are crawling out from the ground
You may feel safe, but rest assured
All of their only concerns
Are tearing you into to little pieces!
And I can’t help you...
Blood stains, a knife, in your hand
Her back, their plan, deafening screams
Blacked out, returned, who are you now?
Shambling, dead stare, falling leaves
Army of traitors, a close call
They march now, rotting, warning signs
Nail shut, the doors! Stay inside!
Hide your flesh wounds and deny!
The moaning keeps you up all night!
You don’t know if you can fight!
You’re still...shaking
There’s no rest beyond the lies
Get arrested for homicide
None of us are innocent
And then silence will be all you’ll here
Pouring out come all the tears
While your vision goes black...
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23. |
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Messing with your mood in the daytime
Passing out, you fall in the shower
Swimming past the pills that you're taking
I don't know you have...
But there's something here that you don't bare
I'm not colouring in the roses
Crawling in between all the sheets now
Don't get your hopes up...
Dealing with all sorts of frustration
Mumbling to yourself by the station
Sinking down beneath that green ocean
While begging for air....
But I know, you fake it
No purpose, they take it
All my days are spent mostly sober
Wishing cars would just run me over
How do you know if you're telling them
All the right lies?
Living up to low expectations
Don't we all deserve inspiration?
Not this constant false admiration
Well all I can tell you is:
"Why don't you try to deal with it?
Stop lying in front of vampires naked
Your own path is only what you make it
Don't tell me you can't do it...
I don't know if I can hear one more goddamn second...
I don't know if I can hear one more goddamn second...I'm done."
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24. |
Dead Creek
01:38
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Everybody's parties now are never that exciting
Do you really know the people that you are inviting?
Take a drink, then forty more, there's no secrets to keep
You'll tell them all, then down the hall to puke and fall asleep
In the morning you will face all of the waves of guilt
Clean up the empty bottles and everything they spilt
On the couch there's ashes now and a few weird stains
Can't escape the aching pain that echoes through your brain
Quiet now, that lonely house that's just past the creek
We had questions but the answers are not what we seek
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25. |
Broken Strings
04:09
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They’re all looking down, down at the ground
In every crowded city, in every lonely town
Voices lost in the crowd, floating up to the clouds
There is no way out, we are all in this together
And like marionettes with broken strings
They can’t lift their arms above their knees
Break the moth and steal its wings
It’s the only way we can survive!
Are you hurting someone?
Are you killing the sun?
Are you looking out for number one?
Tell me when it’s all over and done
In the back of church, or in the middle of the street
They’ll spread their wings, telling you which truth to believe
But don't trust those liars, held up by hooks and wires
When they brushed past the flame, their fake wings caught ablaze!
And like soldier boys with fake toy guns
They’ll aim at innocents, thinking no harm could be done
But back at home, when there’s no one around
The hand of God! Chokes and throws you down!
Broken strings...
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26. |
Outro (Lullaby)
00:40
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Friends for Sale Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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